So, I did it. I jumped in. I did it because I can't erase the way he looks at me from my brain. Because he smells good and because he makes me laugh. Because he says crap that you hear in movies. Because I think he really means them.
I tried to plan an adventure for us on our day off, Tuesday. I really couldn't figure out what to do that was free, and with poor weather, but as the morning went on, I just knew. I took him out to the ice caves in the Indian Heavens Wilderness on Mt. Adams. I didn't tell him where we were going, and he was patient through the whole two hour drive. Didn't ask questions, just kept talking to me about life and making me laugh. I'm not nervous around him. I feel like I can tell him anything, make any kind of ass out of myself, and it really wont matter. He's completely love drunk.
When we pulled into the parking lot for the ice caves he kind of freaked out. Told me not to tease him, because he loves crap like this. More points for him. He didn't care that he didn't have warm gloves, waterproof shoes, or a headlamp. He monkeyed his way around the caves, and smiled the whole time, even after he stepped in a half foot of ice water, soaking his whole shoe. I tried to take him to the land bridge, but I got my car stuck in the snow. I've never had problems driving in the snow before, and it only looked like a foot of snow...but it was more like three. Found that out as we spent three hours digging the car out of the snow with golf clubs and a crock pot lid. Where I'd normally be so pissed I'd be seeing red, or so frustrated I'd yell, I just laughed. We were both soaked through, and freezing. Laying on our sides, trying to dig out the snow from under the car so it wouldn't be high centered anymore. I started to get frustrated at hour two, and he looked at me from the other side of the car, smiled at me, and everything just went away. The lack of feeling in my hands, my soaking wet, covered in snow jeans, the tension in my shoulders, and the feeling that it was going to be hours before we got out of there. I just laughed. In that moment, I knew I made the right choice to give him a chance. That maybe, just maybe, it's not my impulsive drive getting me in trouble again.
We didn't wind up getting the car dug out. At hour three a ranger came and pulled us out. He drove the two hours home, even though he couldn't feel his feet. On the day that I planned an adventure for him, he wound up doing more for me. We argued about things on the way home...mostly who was going to be right more. He's not going to let me win. He's not going to let me give up or be stupid. Retreat into myself when I am afraid. This is the right kind of challenging.
I made dinner when we got back into town. We warmed up with soup in bread bowls, and then I said something about our relationship. He asked if that's what it was, a relationship. If I wanted to tell all my friends about it, and when we were actually first together, because we need to have an anniversary. He made fun of me for not liking titles. I told him to shut up, and then put us in a relationship on Facebook. He just laughed at me and told me he won, again. That was what he wanted all along, and he would have done it the first day he met me. What a boner.
Last night he met Roy, Alissa, Nolan and Mara. Nolan LOVES him. He is so great with Nolan. I am so in trouble now. I was kind of jealous. Nolan only reacted to me that way that fast before. After dinner, Nolan climbed into Blaine's lap and just wanted to be near him. Blaine is so patient with him, and so genuinely excited when Nolan gets excited. His face just lights up. There is NOTHING more attractive than a guy who is great with kids. Today, Nolan just asked if my friend could come back. I think part of it is that Nolan needs people to rough house with, and Blaine let him climb all over him like a spider monkey. I'll probably make him come over again on Friday so Alissa can get a break, and so we don't spend too much time cocooned up, blocking out the rest of the world.
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